I realize, that anyone reading this post, to fully appreciate what I'm about to say, must be going through or have gone through some serious sort of emotional pain or horrific life disappointment/loss. People who feel completely in control of their world right now will not relate to what I am about to say (not at this moment in time). Yet sooner or later, they will be "here" and have a better understanding of this message by THEN. How many times have we human beings read scripture or seen art and it took on a new meaning based on where where were at, emotionally, at the time.
My message tonight is, that WHEN you're in grief, it's best to talk, to share or write about it. Only then can you truly find a connection with others who genuinely understand - and realize that there are certainly other people who endure (or have endured) what you are presently going through. While we may think we are alone in suffering - it's never truly the case.
You are NOT alone in your grief. Certainly there are times when I feel like I've suffered more than my share of BS and disappointment in my lifetime and I am currently enduring a situation that is pretty much unbearable right now. I embrace this time in my life because I have learned that such life conflict forces me to re-evaluate my priorities. It helps me grow at some sort of heroic warped speed. Yet if I could spare myself from this terrible transition and excruciatingly painful life changing "growth" experience and still get to the spiritual "aha" without ... well you can bet your extremely rare comic book collection that I certainly would grant myself that wish for eternal peace and harmony.
While I would never want to give up the growth I've accumulated from past sufferings - horrific experiences with loss and violation - it certainly feels like a shit-pile of undeserved Hell that I've been forced to endure - and to be enduring at this current moment in time.
I know I'll survive it. I've endured much worse than this. Yet I'd rather be in that Summerland or Polyanna aspect of life (if I could only manage to get back there, again).
Oh how the seasons and weather changes without anything you or I might do to influence it.
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